happy easter.

happy easter.
love, j.

would you?

we're already halfway through the week :)
happy wednesday.
love, j.

conversion.

"you cannot convert people beyond your own conversion." - bh. roberts

good thing i get fun letters from my

sister missionary that have just the 

right quote written on the inside of 

the envelope.

"you cannot lift another soul

until you are standing on 

higher ground than he is. you 

cannot light a fire in another 

soul unless it is burning in

 your own soul." - harold b. lee

love, j.

better not worse.

via.

happy thursday.

love, j.

we are somebody.

"As children of God we are somebody. He will build us, mold us, and magnify us if we will but hold our heads up, our arms out, and walk with him. What a great blessing to be created in his image and know of our true potential in and through him! What a great blessing to know that in his strength we can do all things!" - Elder Marvin J. Ashton

 via.

love, j.

butterflies.

love, j.

be done with all the rest.

love, j.

twenty thirteen.

no quejarse.

love, j.

what we make of it.

"Christmas is what we make of it. Despite all of the distractions, we can see to it that Christ is at the center of our celebration." - Thomas S. Monson

merry christmas.

love, j.

just move forward.

"We have work to do. Thank you for the sacrifices you make and the good you do. Keep going, and the Lord will help you. At times you may not know quite what to do or what to say--just move forward. Begin to act, and the Lord assures that 'an effectual door shall be opened for [you]' (D&C118:3). Begin to speak, and he promises, 'You shall not be confounded before men; for it shall be given you in the very hour, yea, in the very moment, what ye shall say;' (D&C 100:5-6). It is true that we are in many ways ordinary and imperfect, but we have a perfect Master who wrought a perfect Atonement, and we have call upon His grace and His priesthood. As we repent and purge our souls ,we are promised that we will be taught and endowed with power from on high (see D&C 43:16)." - Elder D. Todd Christofferson

in His own time He'll give us the answers we need.

love, j.

be afraid.

love, j.

the truth.

is that i have absolutely no idea what i'm doing.

sometimes i feel good and i think i can let life go as it will.

and other times i think that i just wish i could know what's going to happen.

because part of me still loves him as much as i always have if not more.

and another part of me is hurt that i'm not quite sure who he is anymore.

a really big part of me knows that i just need to go.
to learn to love to grow.

and another part of me thinks about what if.

mostly i just listen to christmas music.
mixed in with taylor swifts cd.

and i miss my best friends.
and i spend all but my sleeping hours at the library.

so although i know i'll get through this crazy time of life.
because when have i ever not made it through stronger than i used to be.

i'm just really not sure how to live life right now.

because phone calls are so so nice.
and sometimes they make things more complicated.

and there's no way that i'm putting my life on hold just because he's home.

but reminding myself of that is hard sometimes.

because i think i could be happy either way.

and i know that i could grow and learn and work no matter what.

so right now life goes different than i had planned.

but only in some ways.

because in others i'm still preparing.
and reading. and learning.

i'm just doing it with completely different thoughts running through my head.

but god has always prepared me for everything.
it's just that i'm not sure what's going to be a part of my future anymore.

love and hurt and my heart and mind wanting to do different things.
is just part of life right now i guess.

love, j.

a girl who just needs to see her mom and dad.
and her two best friends.

and for finals to be over.

today.

i'm finding out more and more that life never turns out how i expected.
or even how i planned.

there's someone watching greys anatomy on the top floor of the library.
how do they have time for that?
the rest of us are here this early because we have something called finals to take.

my sister got her mission call today.
and i'm not sure that i've ever been more excited to find out where someone is going to spend the next year and a half of their life than now.

my roommates know everything about my life.
and i've never been this open with almost anyone before.

taylor swift's album red?
been on repeat everyday for the past week of my life.

but today i realized that i'm missing this short time to listen to christmas music.
and taylor swift has a holiday album..
perfect.

but really justin beiber's christmas song, drummer boy.
awesome.
we're kind of into the rap stage at my apartment right now.

conference talks.
phone calls.
picture quotes.
putting everything into homework.
realizing that i'm a little too dramatic sometimes.
best friends.
and being just friends.

makes life a whole lot easier.
even if it is "complicated" right now.

so good luck on finals.
although i need that a lot more than any of you.

school sucks.
but is totally worth it.

happy wednesday.

love, j.

my mom and my sister.

are the best.

"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." - St. John 14:27

deuces.

love, j.

desire.

"In the Book of Mormon we learn about those who loved God so much they had 'no more disposition to do evil, but to do good continually' (Mosiah 5:2). Does this mean they were never enticed again? Surely not, since that would have limited their agency. Does this mean they never made another mistake or had another bad day? No. They probably messed up just like we do, since they were living in the same fallen world in which we live. The issue isn't whether or not they slipped, but that they didn't want to. ' And thanks be to God, we will be judged not only by our works but also by the desire of our hearts'" (Millet, Grace Works, 55; see also Alma 41:3; D&C 137:9). - Brad Wilcox (The Continuous Atonement 171)

love, j.

special occasion.

"don't save something for a special occasion.
every day of your life is a special occasion."
- president thomas s. monson

whether it's that new shirt.
or those favorite pair of shoes.
or that text or letter that you're
not sure whether to send or not.
even that compliment or hello
you haven't had the courage to give.

don't be afraid that they'll get ruined.
or that you'll miss them too much.
don't be afraid that it will hurt.
or that something will go wrong.
because life is life.
and it's meant to be lived.

love, j.

sunday lovelys.

"As sons and daughters of our Heavenly Father, we are capable of so much more. For that, good intentions are not enough. We must do. Even more important, we must become what Heavenly Father wants us to be."  - President Dieter F. Uchtdorf

love, j.

talk.

"it seems to me that communication is essentially a matter of talking with one another. let that talk be quiet for quiet talk is the language of love. it is the language of peace. it is the language of god. it is when we raise our voices that tiny mole hills of difference become mountains of conflict."
- president gordon b. hinkley

love, j.

contribution.

"every person is different and has a different contribution to make. no one is destined to fail."

 - henry b. eyring. 

love, j.

no regrets.

says it all.
especially when i'm doubting it all.
love, j.