my biggest struggle.

I spent most of the last week at family camp and I loved every second of it. I was sad I had to come for part of it (boo work). But I was reminded of something important in my life and I learned a good lesson while I was there. My Grandpa has Alzheimers and I don't really think he knows who most of us are anymore and it's super sad but my Grandma is one of the greatest ladies that I know and she still takes care of him every single day. She's fabulous. I can't even begin to imagine how that must be. On Friday night she said that she's still learning patience and I thought what a great example she is. She's having the opportunity to learn more patience in her life and I know she's being blessed for it. I want to follow her example. I want to have more patience. It's one of my 2011 goals and I'm definitely still working on it. 

I love my family.

J.

some days.

Sometimes it’s not that I can’t explain how I’m feeling.

It’s that I honestly have no idea what I’m feeling.

And that’s when I cry.

And I can’t understand what’s going on with me.

But it’s happened before.

And it will all work out.

As it did before.

I like to understand.

And I like to know.

And I’m working on my patience.

And absence makes me get irritated.

Always right before the return home.

I don’t know why.

But.

God has never let me cry  and not understand without letting it be for the best.

And I trust Him.

And that’s all that matters right now.

And that's why when one of your best friends takes the time to text you back.

It makes your day better.

And you know that they're still in your life because they're supposed to be.

And because they've always been a blessing.

Some days.

Aren't so bad after all.

:)

Love.

Always.

J.