forgiveness.

"I will greet this day with a forgiving spirit. I will forgive even those who do not ask for forgiveness. Many are the times when I have seethed in anger at a word or deed thrown into my life by an unthinking or uncaring person. I have wasted valuable hours imagining revenge or confrontation. Now I see the truth revealed about this psychological rock inside my shoe. The rage I nurture is often one-sided, for my offender seldom gives thought to his offense! I will now and forevermore silently offer my forgiveness even to those who do not see that they need it. By the act of forgiving, I am no longer consumed by my unproductive thoughts. I give up my bitterness. I am content in my soul and effective again with my fellowman." - The Traveler's Gift

love, j.

questions.

there's a lot of questions in my life.

like why has molly always been with me my first of big changes in school?

and why is jenny my room roommate now?

or how in the world did it end up that heather is even in our apartment?

and why a year ago was i here when he called?

and how did it end up so perfectly that i was by myself outside of the car?

why was i home on a tuesday and a wednesday this year?

and why did i get to spend those last days with him?

why is my life so busy busy busy right now?

and why do i wear this ring that says "be still."

but you know what?

i don't need an answer to any of them.

because i know that "coincidences are when god chooses to remain anonymous." - elder donaldson 

and that's good enough for me.

love, j.

lord's time table.

via.

so you could say i'm a planner.

and that not knowing what i 

was going to do with the rest

of my life was kind of killing me.

but all He was asking for was 

patience and trust in Him.

and now i know why i just

couldn't figure out what i was

supposed to be doing with my

future.

so be thankful for the time

that He has you wait.

and then for the time that He

answers you. because it won't

be what you think. or even 

what you thought you need.

but it will be ten billion times

better. because He always

knows what's right. and He

knows what path i need to 

take. i just had to wait and

find out.

and the waiting was well worth it.

love, j.

people care.

it's in the late night texts.
and the "how was last night?"

it's in the enormous amount of food so that i don't starve myself.
and the light on my bicycle.

it's in the hugs.
and the "i'm so happy to see you."

it's in the time that they sacrifice.
and the hot car rides with no a/c.

it's in the activity and the memories made.
and maybe even in the money spent.

it's in the fathers blessings.
and the "be a good example.
think before you speak.
and the spirit will help you remember."

it's in the temple.
and the overwhelming feeling of peace felt there.

it's in the alone time.
and the too much watched t.v. series.

it's in the "let's have lunch."
and sleepovers.

and it's in the little things all around us.
we just have to look for them.

especially on hard days like this.

love, j.

let god.

enough said?

love, j.