i wish

that i could take five steps back.
and not care so much.

so that it was just a crush.
and it wouldn't occupy all my thoughts and energy.
and be a part of all my plans.

i wish that i could live in every moment.
and not worry about everything else.

i wish that i could learn everything that i do at college
and still get to see my family everyday.

and that i could stop being such a complainer.
and be grateful for all of my blessings.

i wish that i could get good grades without all the stress.
and that i knew i was going to have a job that i love.

i wish that i wouldn't care so much about spending money.
and that i would be a fun person to be around.

i wish that i would decide what i want to major in.
so that taking the classes would have a definite purpose.

i wish that i would always have nice thoughts.
and that i would be kinder.

because wishes are kind of like goals.
especially if i try to make them happen.

love, j.