i'm proud of him.

for doing what the spirit prompted him to do.
even though it was hard.
and it still is.
especially in utah county.
where you get judged for it.
without people even knowing the reason.

i'm proud of him.
for getting a job.
and going to work everyday.
and not sitting around.
and being a bum.
like he easily could be.

i'm proud of him.
for reading his scriptures.
and going to church.
for being an example to his roommate.
even if he doesn't know it.

i'm proud of him.
for being willing to take the steps to go back.
especially when it's so hard.
and he has to take all the crap for it.
for choosing to be worthy while he's there.
and for forever after.

i'm proud of him.
for letting me stay in his life.
when i know it can't be easy.
especially when he's the one who has to comfort me.
and remind me that everything's okay.

i'm proud of him.
for still doing cute things for me.
and for trying to be his best self.
for still making the effort.
and for being willing to "go with me."
and pray for himself to know too.
when i'm prompted by the spirit.
and we have to make hard decisions.

i'm proud of him.
for making decisions for himself.
when so many others are telling him what they think he should do.
even me and my opinionated self.

i'm proud of him.
for forgiving me.
for saying sorry.
and for still being my best friend.
when i needed him the most.

God placed him in my life for a reason.
and everything between us happens for a reason.
even if those reasons are hard to see now.

love, j.